I feel like I need to say some things, so we’ll see where this goes.
Jesus is AMAZING. I submit and surrender to Him. No one else. Yes there are people who I respect and honor, but I do not submit to them as I submit to God. No one else deserves that response as God does. “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding” -Proverbs 9:10. The often mentioned “fear of the Lord” used to confuse me. I didn’t feel like I was afraid of Him and when I thought about it, Jesus says to not be afraid. Come to think of it, I didn’t really want an intimate relationship with someone I was afraid of… but wait, was I supposed to only be afraid of God? Then I read something by Tyler Johnson that finally answered that uncertainty in my heart. That feeling that there was something wrong about all this. “Fearing God’s punishment is always an indication of immaturity in the life of a believer. We have all been there. Rather, have awe towards God. Gaze upon His beauty. Let His love undo you for how accepting it is and how unconditional it is despite your problems. That is the fear, or awe of God, and that is the beginning of wisdom.” I’m pretty sure I just laughed when I read that section of the book. Why? I used to think I wasn’t gaining any wisdom because Proverbs 9:10 said the fear of the Lord was the beginning and I didn’t think I was there. Now I realize that’s exactly where I started! He’s amazing. What’s the name of this blog? Anisha stands. Why? Based on my favorite song ever because it’s just a powerful anthem that represents my life. The Stand by Hillsong United.
You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand
Um, I don’t know about you, but I think it’s kinda awesome that He thought of us and loved us before the foundation of the world. That He is the Creator who made me His child. His precious daughter with an incredible inheritance. As beautiful as Creation is, isn’t it freakin’ crazy that He thinks every hair (even arm hairs) is more precious and beautiful to Him than anything else in Creation?! Like even the Alps.
You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand
Even though God created the Law and made it possible for us to fulfill, we failed…hard. That’s what Jesus came to do! To perfectly fulfill every law and to achieve the inheritance we kept missing as sinners. After Jesus was just living life for 30 years in complete absence of sin, He was baptized and the heavens opened and God said “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased.” Reminds Jesus of His identity before He goes into ministry. After 30 years of pleasing God perfectly. Oh also there’s something in Hebraic culture where the son receives the inheritance after age 30 or something cool like that. So yeah we didn’t do all that perfect life-living. Guess what though? Jesus lives in us. hahahah. that’s awesome. What Jesus did on the cross is finished work. nothing we have to do but BELIEVE. That’s why the enemy messes with our belief, if he does that then we forget who we are as children of God and doubt and all that bad stuff. “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever BELIEVES in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” Notice He didn’t say “may go to heaven.” Just saying. Anyways, I used to be sin-conscious and then felt shameful/guilty/gross/bad things satan wanted me to be whenever I failed. Over and over. HAHA. but guess what! The cross is a revelation of my VALUE as a daughter of God not a revelation of my sin. That means if I look at myself as God sees me, then I won’t be so worried about when I sin. Rather, I have a righteous mindset that enables me to focus on what Jesus did and how God sees Jesus in me. It’s not when I sin but if I sin. I am righteous because of Jesus. You won’t ever know my heart as Jesus does, but I am here to say that I don’t mean self-righteous/proud. As in, after I gave Jesus my life, I became righteous and perfect in His eyes. YAY GOD. So I don’t go around telling people that “because I’m a sinner…” blah blah I want to foster a righteous mindset and focus on how amazing Jesus is not on whether I mess up. Doesn’t mean I completely ignore my sin against God or others. I don’t ask for forgiveness if that happens though. I remember that I’ve ALREADY been forgiven and stand back on that Truth (Jesus). I just remember that I received it already and it’s there for me to grab! I just have to forgive myself really haha!
So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You
There’s really no other response when you realize how awesome Dad is. He’s awesome. Just let Him love on me and then I become love to others as I love myself. I’m pretty amazing. Jesus thinks I am, so I think I am too! I wouldn’t want anyone else to have my heart as Jesus does. I am a human BEing, not a human DOing, so I’m just gonna be with Jesus all the time. That’s a promise. I don’t have to do anything for Him to love me! I don’t have to feel Him to know He’s with me. He is true to His word so He never leaves me.
So I’ll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand
Ephesians 6:10-20. The helmet of salvation is just one of those crucial elements of the armor of God. All the other things are essential too. As I walk with Jesus, He will show Himself through my actions because I am realizing more and more of who I am every moment. His Spirit is EXPLODING in me. Man, I want to just hug everyone I see and/or laugh up a storm. I’ve been trying to control it somewhat so I can actually interact with people, but sometimes I just can’t contain it and soon I just won’t be able to control it anymore either. This life is a testimony. Every moment ideally. Yeah, still growing but I would hope that of anything I can say of myself that I hope people notice is that I am obsessed with Jesus. Like lately on facebook statuses that shouldn’t have anything to do with Jesus, I just want to add something about Him because everything DOES have to do with Jesus because He’s in everything I do. “‘Cause everything you do, just screams ‘I love you’ and everything you are, says “I care”‘
So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all
So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours
DUDE. Ephesians 6: 10-20 again. “Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.” boom. What’s your attitude? Complete surrender to God (when you do that, you automatically resist the devil so you don’t even need to focus on the stupid little guy because God is so much bigger). Every day I am in awe of Him because He’s AMAZING. Sometimes I can’t handle how awesome He is that I just have to lay down and hug Him. Ultimately, ALL I AM IS YOURS. I am His. He is mine. I am His daughter if I haven’t said that enough. That’s the foundation of it all. I just love Him and He loves on me. simple. the Gospel is so simple it makes me laugh. Jesus! whenever I say His name I giggle. heehee
“God knows that true change only comes through being loved, so change isn’t His priority, love is. It isn’t that He isn’t concerned about us growing; it is that He knows the best way for us to grow is to be loved.” -Tyler Johnson
This song wrecks me.