I have been struggling lately with the nonexistent balance of classes and planning winter break and my spiritual life and and and…the list could go on. However, I’m trying to see it more as blessings in disguise. I’m having moments of extreme stress that I want to yell. I’m having moments when I want to just cry. Or just lay down and listen to music. Or be with friends that I’m struggling to find time to hang out with. Or just simply think and be alone with the jumble that is my brain right now. However, I remembered for the um-teenth time at family group (new name for small group, heehee) that God is in control. I can’t do anything in my own power, I need Him to help me and I need to give Him my worries and my stress. He will lift that burden off of me and give me the wonderful gift of peace. He has a plan for me, and I don’t need to keep worrying about planning it all out myself. If I ask Him, He will most definitely answer. “Under the shadow of Your wings, I will find my rest.” Amen to that!
I’ve really really really really needed some alone time. During that time (that I think everyone needs to have), I was hit by these two songs: Where I Belong by Cory Asbury and Love Came Down by Brian Johnson. What is most important for you to know why these lyrics really moved me is that 1) I’ve lately been forgetting the reason why I’m a leader and why I’m dealing with the difficulties that accompany that role and 2) Not that I wasn’t feeling Him in my life lately, but I’ve been forgetting what it feels like to be in His presence in this way, in a quiet place. It’s where I belong.
Love Came Down by Brian Johnson
If my heart is overwhelmed and I cannot hear your voice
I hold onto what is true, though I cannot see
If the storms of life they come, and the road ahead gets steep
I will lift these hands in faith, I will believe
I remind myself of all that you’ve done
And the life I have because of your son
Love came down and rescued me
Love came down and set me free
I am yours
I am forever yours
Mountain high or valley low
I sing out and remind my soul
I am yours
I am forever yours
When my heart is filled with hope, and every promise comes my way
When I feel your hands of grace, rest upon me
Staying desperate for you God, Staying humbled at your feet
I will lift these hands and praise, I will believe
It seems appropriate that after studying about how God answers prayer that I got some answers yesterday. God works in such amazing ways. With all the challenges I am facing, I know that if it is His plan, then He will make a way. That’s what makes our God personal and mighty at the same time. Even though it may seem impossible at times, I just need to remember those times when I couldn’t stop smiling because of the real ways I experienced Him. I pray that you would be able to experience that yourself.
This song just speaks for the way I feel about Him right now. He has a great plan for you and for me. ”And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us? And if our God is with us, then what could stand against?”